Saturday, December 11, 2010

important insights:

she didnt want to put her husband in an institution
death at home with his family was very sad but important
a hospice was not provided while he was sick
she let her son say goodbye to his father
the older son still is depressed.
death was not easy for the family since they were all very close to the father.

one important thing that i liked was when she said that she didnt let anyome take care of her husband. i thought it was so good that they spent alot of time together in his last months of life. I feel like they did so much in those months an there was like no regrets. Even though she misses him, she seemed really humble.

Another important insight that i thought of was when she woke up her son to say goodbye to his father when he was already dead. That reminded me about when my uncle died and i was left to say bye to him. it was hard to say thing to someone and they dont answer back because it feels so weird to not get a response and to talk to someone that has passed away. In our culture its so common that we speak to the dead. its also like when people die, we feel like they have special powers and like they are listening and watching us from above. I think that speaking to the dead is scary but we always do it

a question that beth made me think about was, how does she sleep at nite in the samme house where her husband died? Also i wonder if she has had any supernatural things happen to her because in america we are obsessed with the supetnatural and whenever skmeone dies we all have this experience where wr can feel their prescence just like my mom always tells me. I wonder if she is scared of loving again or if she thinks that her husband is watchin her. she seems to cope really well but is it just her hiding what she really feels?

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

hw 19 family perspectives on illness and dying

well this is very intersting to me because i never asked my family how they feel about it. I get a really good idea of how they feel though. It is completely different from the way i feel. For my mother its like everytime someone gets really sick and may not make it, she always has a dream about them calling her name or something. A perfect example is with my aunts 3rd son, My mom told me how she was sleeping and then she had a dream hat he called her name and told her to go to the hospital so that he can say bye. So that night she rushed all of us to see him. While there i was the last one to see him out of about 5 or 6 people. his mother was with him in the room, as usual she had a smile on her face, thinking so positive about her son and she couldn't wait until he was back home. When my mother took me to see him, he looked terrible, his bod was so frail and he looked like he was gasping for every bit of air. Inhad never been ecposed to that, but the way that i am, i tried to be positive as well. I pulled a chair next to his bed and we were watching tv together, he was not responding to anything i sed and he just had a blank stare. My mother told me to talk to him because he can hear me and so i did. My mother took his mother to the bathroom really quick while i stayed with him watching tv. as i was talking to him, he looked at me and i stared back and held his hand. Then my mother walked back in and sat down looking around the room while his mother was walking back. About 30 seconds as i was looking at him and talking to him, he took one last breath, with all of his strength and then he stopped. His eyes tilted and his chest no longer had the rapid movements. I stood up and got a little bit closer to him to see if i heard him breathe into the oxygen mask, and i heard nothing. That was when i went to my mother and said, "he stopped breathing, he stopped breathing." she jumped to his bed and tried to wake him. At that very moment his mother came in. The smile turned into tears and yells. "Wally wake up, wake up!" no response once again. All i could do was watch. i did not shed one tear. The nurse came in checked his pulse which no longer existed, and then she looked at his mother and put the white blanket over his face. I left right after that breathing with panic. In the elevator i stood there and tried to contain myself but i couldn't i broke down and cried so hard while i banged on the walls. I got out and my brothers were sitting there joking. They said "why are u crying?!" laughing at me until i told them, Wally died, right in front of me. he looked at me and stopped breathing." their faces changed and tears flowed too. At that very moment i realized that i will never see him again or i will never hear him say, "hey you owe me a soda." pepsi was his favorite. About an hour later my aunt showed up with her son and they had nothing to say, they already knew by the look in my eyes. Until this day i tink about that night and how we all went home that night and continued living.

I feel that in my family the idea of illness and dying are so forbidden. We try to prevent it any way possible, but the way that we try is to just hide it all. My mother hates adressing illness but she has no problem talking about it . She had breast cancer 4 years ago and she has gotten better. she likes to talk about illness because she knows what is is like to be really sick. she likes to joke around about her getting sick and stuff but really it can happen. I feel like in America though it is so common that we joke around about things like getting sick because sometimes it can be amusing because usually when we hear those jokes, we think of how likely it is that te person actualy gets sick. In America we tend to make everything a joke because we are scared to think of negative things as actual possibilities. With my grandmother she knows that she is going to die. She doesnt avoid talking about it and she already has everything planned for my family after she is gone. sh is always telling me that her house will be ours and that we all have money in the bank for us when she passes away. She really has no negative additudes towards getting ill. She is diabetic and she is very careful with what she eats and she understands how serious it is, but it's like she reall doesn't stress it. the motto in my family is that when god says it's our time to go, the we have to go. It seems comforting for everyone to know that when we die, god will take care of us, and i feel that in America peple always feel better when they find some sort of higher power which will care for u when we die. My family are big believers in god and that we will all be in heaven. Also we beileve that the spirit lives on after the body is gone. From several people i have heard about seeing spiits and as much as i scares them, they believe that one day they will be in the same situation.

The way my family solves their illnesses are by using medicines and relying on that to help us. We really don't take an illness seriously unless you are in the hospital for it, then all of a sudden it's like oh shit he really was sick. humans always find ways to solve their problems that i feel that whenever someone ends up in the hospital it is like a taboo. its like we fix everything, but some things just cannot be fixed. My family takes people for granted. We don't care untll someone really ends up sik, thats when we all get together and show love and respecct, but My family does that for such a short time. I feel that out of everyone in my family except my 9 year old baby cousin, i am the only one who think about the ones who have passed in my family. for him to come to me sad saying that he misses wally, makes me feel that at such a young age he has a sense of death and he shows that he remembers the family that he spent so little time knowing. He understands death nand he knows he is human, and that his day will come, but it scares him so much, as it would with any 9 year old. He just shows that he isn't naiive about the world and he sort of thinks like me. Sometimes i feel like his greates influence and i feel that im his sense of security because i always find ways to explain things to him and he always understands.

My family overall speaks about death on a small basis but it does get brought up on occasion. The most recent one was my aunt's miscarriage a month ago. It broke her down but it always gets to the idea that her baby is in a better place. The better place can never be imagined but all we ever say is that there is a better place. My one big question to them is always how do they know? oncve again it goes back to religion and it is a big circle of sickness, dying, and god saving us and bringing us to a better place. Let's hope this better place does exist.

hw 19 health and illness

over thanksgiving i really didnt do much. of course my family andi ate but it gets worse and worse every year. I remember last year for thanksgiving my whole family went to my cousin's house in long island. It was probably the funnest thanksgivin i have had in a while except for the part where him and his wife fought because my cousing was drunk. Besides that, it was a great day. This year we decided to just go to my aunts house. or formal way of arriving. Since my aunt lives in my building, i had no reason to dress up or to look nice. i knew everyone who was going to be there and there weren't even that many people there. Its so weird how my family is al close together. we all basically live in the queens area and we all see eachother maybe like 4 times a week so it really wasnt anything new to me. When i arrived, people were eating and enjoying themselves and i had about one little plate of food. I had no turkey because i never liked it. Other than that the little party was cool. i felt lazy and just nonchalant about it all.

One thing i hate about my family and one thing i really wish could change is the way that we always use holidays as excuses to drink. The thing that sucks is that when my family starts to drink, they are most likely not ending. This thanksgiving was not as bad as the last one. Only a few people got drunk, but i dont understand why drinking on a food holiday is necessary

One thing i also noticed is that my family never invites my older aunt to anything special even though she lives 5 blocks away. she has had such a hard life. She lost all 4 of her sons to terrible things but she is such a strong woman. Her last sone passed away about 2 years ago and i feel that i am the only one who ever thinks about him and how cool he was to me. He suffered most of his life ever since an accident that happened when he was younger. it is just sad how we forgot all about her and i know she wishes she was there with us and all of her sons were too.

I typically hate hoildays. I find no joy in them and really i hate how we celebrate as a family. Lets's see how christmas goes.

Monday, October 18, 2010

hw 9 freakonomics

In the film freakonomics, there were certain intellectual moves that the writers made. One of them was to tackle an issue for about 10 minutes and show all the poblems that issue created, and then they would sort of show a "what if" situation. There was a lot of 2 sided arguments which basically made the movie have noo definitive meaning, it was just made to show how we can view certain things. Another move was how the writers used evidence like first hand witnesses accounts of the topics, and also getting profesors who debate eachothers ideas and put them both in the movie to express differences, but really never saying who was right. The 3rd tool that was used was the ay in how the writers always tried to make the film funny rather than make it a intellectual film. I think the moves in that was to create the interested effect. When movies like this are made, they have to have some sort of comedy or a break off of all the facts and add some life into the movie or people get bored easily. his may also have been a way for the directors to sort of insult our intelligence, like by giving stupid situations and then having weird drawings and even weirder people explain the findings, its sort of like not adding any intelligence to the film but just a bunch of nonsense and no logical thoughts.

This film was highly dependent on test subjects, such as the 2 high school kids who were interviewed along with the other 900 who weren't. Also having the everyday person describing what their opinion was on a topic. The film was also dependent on commentary and visual cartoon illustrations to get ther point across in a simpler way so that us kids can understand better and not be completely lost.

i agree with the statement that Freakonomics serves as an inspiration and good example to our attempt to explore the "hidden-in-plain-sight" weirdness of dominant social practices. This film tackled a few topics thatpeople hogt about but could never understand because they had no evidence. his film helped me see that bribery does impact youth adn that it can change someone's life if used properly.

hw 8

the sprouts project wheere we grew our own food was pretty interesting to me, even though my sprouts didnt grow at all. The reactions i got from people were all the same though. The sprouts tasted like grass and wre pretty nasty to eat. The process semmed cool to me. i felt that it was a great learning experience and i wish i did it properly and got better results.

hw 7c

chapter 8
In this cahpter i read about how these slaughterhouses are digusting places and how they provide unsafe working environments. These places abuse its laborers and they commit crimes on a daily basis but are not punished for it. The slaughter houses are where the most injuries can occur and the least amount are reported and discussed. These corporations found ways to beat the system and that was by trapping its workers in a secrecy bond. Also in a way, they blackmail and bribe the workers. They give wokers prizes or doing good and then if the people are hurt, they get treated and are told to go back to work asap and they are treated like trash. The people who got hurt working for these compainies should at least be respected, but they are usually outcasted and looked at as insignificant.

gems: sexual harrassment in slaughterhouses are very common in which the female workers are preyed upon and disrespected physically, even sometimes by their bossess with the body parts of animals, just so that these workers can get promoted.

To me slaugterhouses are notonly slaughtering animals, but they slaughter humans. The number of accidents per year is incredible and sad, but its like these people experience what the animals do. I think it is very sad that this work has to be done and this whole business of food is corrupt and it just upsets me that i cant do anything about it.

hw 7c

chapter 7
Colordo was turned i into an execution town. There were meat packing facilities built where up to 100,000 cattle can be stored and killed/ processed for meat and animal food. There soon became a rise in disasswembly lines. These were the line in which the animals were cut up by machines and packed with great speed. These facilities became places where there would be thousands of animals murdered on a daily basis. Also these were the places where these big corpotations would hire immigrant workers because they worked for cheap and very dilligently.

Gems: Before Greely became a Meatpacking town it was a utopian community of farmers.
IBP put new slaughterhouses in rural areas and close to feedlots but far away form labor unions

I think its crazy how we just kill animals for business and then the people that are killing the animals for us are treated like garbage while the companies sit back and get rich. the workes are what make the companies succeed and for them to work and then in top of that be treated poorly and still contiue to work shows that these corporations d not care about yo. If you were desperate for a job then you would do this work and you would not complain.

hw 7b

chapter 6

These big food corporations are taking over the land that has been run by farmers for many years. The farmers have no choice but to sell their land and animals and start over again. people losing their land also lost their businesses. Farmers had to find a way to protect their land and keep their families finacially stable. These ranchers are becoming deporessed and suicidal.

Gems: the suicide rate among farmers and ranches is about 3 times higher than the national average.

I think this idea of killing yourself because your ranches are doing bad and the way that these farmers live miserabl because of fast food chains is crazy. I fell like these ranchers would be happier if they were to always have a back up plan if their first plans were to get ruined.

hw 7b

chapter 4/5
precis: these chapters are about what its like to start a franchise and how operating it is sort of like working for other people as well. Also how it is hard to veto the rules of the major operator's rule
gems:"give up their former lives and devote themselves to mcdonalds." pg 95

I find it crazy that these corporations are like mini governmentsd of their own. Its like the companies are their own countries and the head of the company is the president of everything food related.

chapter 5:

this chapter was aboujthow french fries basically became the baby to almost every fast food joint. Also how they taste so good and they are consumd at a rapid rate. Tis chapter also hits on how french fries were becoming experimented with and put through various tests to see what the strengths and weaknesses were of the fries. J.R Simplot foresaw the frozen food business as providing meals of the future.

Gems: the 1950's was the glden age of food processing

This guy j.r simplot was like he founding father of food experimenting and he was basically the man who put these onion rings and fries in my freezer and freezers all around the world. It makes me think where would we be without food that could be frozen and reheated.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

hw 7 reading response

Fast Food Nation, Eric Schlosser

chapter one is about how this man eric schlosser met the sort of father of fast food, and the man who created the carl's jr chain. He speaks about how the nice towns where it was so green, became littered with fast food joints. IT is also about how fast food joints originated from the simplest forms of becoming vendor to chain owners

Chapter 2

this is about how the evil corporations are taking control of the children's minds so that now kids will remember these fast food places, the characters that endorse it, as well as the food they serve. It is about the manipulation of the children's mind so that they will force their parents to buy them the unhealthy food.

My big question is why is it that these parents know what these corporations are doing but they are still purchasing the foods.

America is littered with fast food places, it is just so hard to get away and resist the temptations when they surround you in every direction.

This reminds me of the burgerking commercial when the cooks gave these people from like a 3rd world country a whopper, and the people ate it and loved it. It is like people are zombies to this fake food and we all love it because of the ways that it is advertised, even though the people had never ate a bk burger, the first bite sold them immediately.

Friday, October 1, 2010

hw 6 food diary.



9/29/10

today for lunch i ate 2 slices of pizza. I choose the pizza beacause it taste pleasing and there is a 10 second waiting time for it. I like the way that it is cheap as well. I dont like how it is boiling hot when i get it though. I usually get pizza during lunch. This was no exception. I enjoyed it a lot but i felt pretty nasty. I hate eating while walking, which is what i was doing with my pizza. It was also raining a bit that day so along with my pizza, there was rain water in it. But i still ate it with pleasure because afterall i did pay for it. I looked up the calorie count for the pizza and it sed 1,900 calories per slice! i literally ate for 2 days, because i had 2 slices and on top of that i had a snack which was a soda from 7 11 and some crackers that had about 300 calories. i felt so nasty but i felt satisfied for that day. When i went home all i had to eat was a little plate of noodles and broccoli. it tasted kind of salty which made me feel like i was eating salt water, but as disgusted as i was i still ate it and i dont kno why.

9/30/10
today i had a subways sandwhich for lunch, it was a blt on italian bread, with a side of chips and a drink. It was delicious. i looked at the calories and it had about 540 calories altogether. It was good and i felt kind of good. i got my veggiwes in the sandwhich and there was no grease dripping everywhere. i guess it all soaked into the bread. It was a great lunch and i will definitely get it again. I was thinking to myself why is it that i eat a lot? i came up with the answer of, money. I eat a lot so i waste my money on something for myself so I could be satisfied. I feel like it has to do with greed and its like if i have the money why not buy 10 dollar lunches everyday. i feel like if i weren't to have a good amount of money in my wallet, i woud eat less portions of things and maybe make me slimmer, but then i think about it and its like im just going to make up for the missing calories when i go to my grandma's house. Later on that night after i hung out i came home and i was hungry so i called my brother when i was near my building and i told him to come down so we can get some food. We ended up going to white castle and went crazy. I ended up spending 22 dollars on all the food and it was kind of worth it. The food looked so delicious. I knew that i at least ate 3,00 or more calories that night. I felt so good though. It was like a drug. I eat when i feel like it, sometimes when im not really hungry. When i am with certain people though i tend to never eat for the whole day. I have no urges to eat and i feel great. When i am with other people like family, i tend to eat a lot because i feel more comfort eating with them around.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

hw 5 discourse

to me the word discourse means a discussion in which power is involved and so is arguing. the discourse example i would use would be eating unhealthy foods. the discourse in that is that there are debates and arguments of what is good for you and what isnt. When i think about it though, anything can be fast food. Fast food is everything that we can buy within a few minutes and consume, it really doesnt matter what kind of food. Everything to me is fast food, it just depends on if the food is unhealthy or has high amounts if a certain thing i them that isnt healthy.I read the article about fostering fat. it says that we are basically too consumed with other obstacles in our lives, that we don't have the time to make ourselves healthier. I really think that this topic is pretty complicated. It goes deeper than just our health. getting healthy means that people take time out of their days, which means we do our own thing, and sort of diss "The Man" a.k.a the government. the government, or more likely the FDA doesnt really want you to be healthy, because then we dont consume in fast food corporations which means theuy lose money therefore concluding to the government losing money. Its all one chain reaction, but then again the government still has us hooked and so do all these other corprations with what they produce. Food is a poision leaving us vulnerable to diseases and an early death. We cannot live natural happy lives because there are all these outside forces pressuring us to live within the American norms that we all go by. food is the poision that has us all by the hand and its not letting go anytime soon.

Monday, September 27, 2010

hw 4 food and family


Food habits in my family have mainly not changed. The family members i speak to and socialize with all had one thing in common and that is that we were all mainly raised by my grandmother. In my grandmother's house, there are almost an unlimited amount of food options. From fruits and vegetables, to cereals and junk foods. all you have to do is open up that closet door and pick and choose. My family always jokes that her house is like a supermarket and if a world disaster were to happen we would all lock ourselves in her closet. MY grandfather goes food shopping every single day. there has not been a day where he doesn't have a supermarket bag in his hand. With all of this food surrounding everyone growing up in that house, obesity became a problem. My grandmother would feed us all unhealthy things. I remember at about the age of 3 i was drinking about 2 nutriment shakes a day. I would also eat from the time i woke up, to the time my mother came to pick me up. I got really heavy at a young age, and obviously i'm not so ripped up now either which means that my old eating habits are still present in my everyday life.

its not only me who is like this. everyone that was raised in that house, from me to my brothers, to my mom and aunts, all of them grew up unhealthy in that house. It was like a disease. If you didn't eat in that house, you were a bad child, now its if u don't eat in that house, you are a mean person. Things really don't change. Mostly everyone ho grew up in that house and is older now is overweight and maybe being at my grandmother's house made an impact on that. I mean its not all her fault, she showed us a path, but after that it was our decision to continue on that path. i wonder what would i be like if i grew up with only my mother caring for me. how different would i be?

i spoke to my mother about why our grandmother is like that. She told me that back in her days, there wasn't a lot of food. my grandmother grew up poor and her mother was very strict with the food she gave out and there was a lot of discipline in her household. i also feel like through the food my grandma gives us, it is her way of connecting with us. it gives us a reason to go over to her house, and it works.

The main reason why i think that the way i eat now compared to the way i ate before is so different is because now i really go for snacks instead of big meals. i mean it is sort of like the same thing in a way, but i rather eat snacks. nowadays, i get my own money and i usually go out on my own so i can eat whatever and whenever i want to, which now puts me in control of my own life and my choices.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

when we went on our trip to union square i saw some very distinct differences when we went on our trip to union square i saw some very distinct differences between the mcdonalds workers and the street vendor workers. first of all i realized that the mcdonalds was very dull with no color. i noticed a few differences such as that the mcdoalnds workers were all dressed up and kind of happy. When i went to the outdoor market though i saw so many people happy. such as the kind man from the ronnybrook farm. he imports fresh milk from the cows on his own farm. he was very happy with his job saying, " i love nyc and the people here are so friendly and they are very supportive of my company. i produce fresh milk that i bring here about twice a week. plus the women here are beautiful!" the man was very happy to be working where he was. i feel like the beauty of working selling milk or veggies is that you dont have to be liable for a child dying of obesity from lettuce or like a tomatoe. They can feel good a bout what they are selling to the public which gives them a positive outlook.

As for the mcdonalds workers they were just all about the sell and had no sense of humor or wanted to talk to anyone. professionalism was and still is a big thing in mcdonalds. they barely wanted to answer questions and just wanted to get you some food which is all fake. i feel like the street vendors enjoy their job a tons more. I think that the workers at mcdonalds feel like criminals but they are trying to survive too. Working at a fast food place, you already know that you hare hurting people but you do it anyways because it pays the bills. i jus think that the street vendors are happy knowing that their food will serve a good purpose and maintain health while mcdonalds is all processed and it harms our bodies.

The one reason why i think that fast food is so successful is because people like the idea of eating a heavy rough meal for a lunch rater than something that is slowly cooked and prepared special. We like the idea of food on the go, and whay better way to do that then when you have a nice burger in your hand and a soda in the other. food companies made it so that they will build their companies in busy hectic areas because those are the areas that produce a ton of business and this is why fast food companie succeed. I think it also has to do with advertisements and jus all the money invested in a company. Also with all the options of fast food, it could never be eliminated from the world.

i normally visit the unhealthy place. i feel like i dont get judged when i walk into a mcdonalds but if i were to go to a store that sold only fruits and veggies and i walk out with a little bag of lettuce n onions, i would totally be stared at. It has something to do with the previous images that you portray. If those images change and you decide to be different, then you get judged. I think another reason i go to a mcdonalds because i always kno what i am getting. processed labratory meat and fries and i love it. i find it more appealing that if you are going to pay for food, you should get the item with the most calories and the cheapest price. it is inevitable to not run into a fast food places around us.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

hw 2 food

food is how we live basically. i feel like what we all eat will kill us anyways so why not eat it. im not saying that we should eat burgers and fries and drink soda everyday, but we should eat what we want and enjoy whatever we want while we are alive. I dont like how everything I eat is so nasty though, in the way that it is made from dead cows and animals everywhere. It actually seems really nasty, but it intrigues my taste buds so i will consume it. Food is a business like every other it will always be consumed no matter how it is made. Food is irresisstable for all of us, some more than others though.

A food priority to me isn't only one thing, it varies on things such on price and convenience. i usually go for food that is cheap and fast to make. usually i eat what i do becuase of time restrictions. i feel like if we got more time to eat it would be beneficial because then that gives me more time to explore my options.

An ideal meal to me is always some seafood. I really like seafood and it is good especially when i go out to dinner with my arents because seafood tends to be expenive in certain places and i dont have to pay for it. i would really live off of clams, raw and breaded, as well as calamari and a bunch of other things along those lines. im really open with my eating options as im willing to try many new foods.